balance yo sh*t out.

 the truth of the matter is can't nobody fix you.  you gotta fix yaself, period.  ain't no way around it.  so many people go into relationships thinking that's gonna fix they shit... and it don't.  it really make shit worse when you think about it cuz you're going into some shit with a false expectation of things changing cuz you added something else to the equation.  real shit, when you tryna fix you, you gotta subtract everything that threatens your energy & that includes relationships.  (that toxic trauma bonding shit don't count here cuz if you're still doing that, you're not ready to heal.)   how is it that you can logically go into a situation broken in a million pieces & expect somebody else to pick em up?  that shit don't work & the average mfr with any common sense should be running to the nearest exit once they figure that shit out about you.     you have to focus on fixing you.  until you d...

i personally think the following shit needs to stop & if you don't agree you're prolly the person that does this stupid shit...  assuming a person is upset because they're saying what's on their mind.  they are reacting to something you did. telling people, it's them because they feel how they feel, address the shit & move on, you can't tell somebody when & how tf to feel.  getting mad at people for enforcing their boundaries & putting you back in your place.  you should've stayed tf in your lane to begin with.  poking at people then looking crazy when they go off, everybody has a limit, it's not your job to find out what it is & if you think it is, then you deserve pretty much whatever tf they give you in return. minding other people fuccin business... don't you have your own shit to do?  if not, find something else. letting people make it... the world is like it is cuz we started letting mfrs make it.  had people been put back i...

i'm stiff af on my boundaries, now anyway, cuz in the process of tryna balance this sh*t i called life out, i came to realize i allowed mfrs get comfortable overstepping their boundaries.  yep, i allowed people to get just that comfortable to where they thought the shit i said didn't apply to them & that pattern had me quite bitter for a while.   i lost friends.   shit i’m still losing friends.   but guess what, i'm gonna be ok with losing mfrs until i get the right group around me that understand the shit i’m on.   see that's the beautiful thing about peace, when you got it, you don't want no mfn body around you disturbing it...  so  sometimes you gotta re-teach people how tf they supposed to handle you & that's not tf at all.    don't ever let a mfr get comfortable coming out they lane with you.    period.  if you realize a person thinks they can treat you however they want to, then that's the very mfr you need to get...

I came home from my second tour in the United States Navy rather unstable to say the least.  After several years of therapy, someone introduced me to shadow work.  This is where I found my life.  Shadow work opens up another world, simply put, it allows you to get to the root of your shit.  Trauma, hurt, pain, heartbreak, even our own self-sabotaging stupidity, all need healing if we wish to come out on top at some point.  I've been called a healer all my life, but was never able to heal myself, so once I realized that I, indeed, was the source of a lot of my own issues, it was a small thing to a giant, because WHY the hell would I continue to allow myself to journey these circumstances?  Makes no sense right... WRONG.  Every situation I've ever been in, specifically the ones I thought I wouldn't or couldn't survive, was for good.  I walked these paths so that I could, at bare minimum, tell the story of "why you shouldn't do that, that particular ...

during the realignment of my throat chakra i'm pretty sure i forgot how to shut tf up... i mean shit was just flying out of my mouth before i even completed the thought in front of it.... i noticed myself stumbling over words, losing my voice easily & really unable to speak loudly.  it was like something inside of my was muffling my breath & suffocating my voice, my loud mouth ass didn't like that shit at all.  something i noticed while being forced to be quiet tho, was how much i heard when i actually listened.  i lost a lot of people i thought would be a around when my vissudha got right... that lil inner voice of mine started having a lot of shit to say, truthful shit in a not so comforting way all the time.  i felt like my intuition & inner wisdom leveled up because i got to a point where i could literally here the lie come out of people's mouth.  when my throat finally realigned, i had about 30 notebooks full of notes, answered questions & j...