heavy is the head that wears the crown...

 i am possibly one of the most stubborn, bullheaded, determined to do the shit my way people in the history of those types of people.  saharara strayed away & i literally lost my entire shit... whole brain just up & left one day, no note, no instructions, no emergency contact.. .just checked tf out.  my depression kicked up so bad i was double dosing my meds just to feel semi normal... my anxiety had me not moving unless i had an arsenal with me... yeah hypervigilant af to say the least...  ok so when lil baby decided to get right, the shit had my whole body throbbin.  i mean bad nerves, headaches, dizzy.. shit i woke up a couple times & didn't know where i was right off.  (i was at home in my own damn bed. if that don't scream balance some shit idk wtf does.)  anyway as the energy realigned the ringing in my ears & feeling like my carpet had me on death row (everything i touched was shocking me..) & immediately i felt my spiritual & mental bodies reconnect.  i reached a point of being at peace with everything, shit if it aint my business ion care... my only focus is to remain aligned so i don't have to go through this emotional ass rollercoaster again... 

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